lets be honest
novembre 29, 2008, 03:13
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lets be honest with ourselves, going back to singapore sucks. I’m leaving my husband of 1 month tomorrow, kicking and screaming, with lots of tears might I add. 2 months, Im sure will fly by. Before I know it, Patrick will be in sg for cny and we will be reunited for our life back in the US. Also I just need to tell myself that I have lots of things to do in SIngapore like hanging out with old friends, marriage paperwork on the IC, navy medical screening, bead buying and spending time with the family. Indeed, 2 months of fun and some paperwork.. it can’t be that bad. Plus I get to celebrate my bday tmr with my in laws in Portland who are soo sweet.. Im gonna miss Patrick like hell though :( (((



sick
novembre 15, 2008, 17:14
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What a h0orrible week this is turning out to be. A car accident and now THREE non paying buyers on etsy? WTFUCK. I’m trying to calm myseld down and tell myself that this is all part of the job..



sneak wedding pictures!
novembre 13, 2008, 06:22
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Last weekend Brian sent me the first edit version of our wedding and they are superb. The quality here in these pictures aren’t clear and this size here is the biggest I can get because I took them off Brian’s pro website for pictures and these aren’t the actual prints. Looking back, I wish I smiled a bit wider but it was an exhausting week, and day. Its also hard to keep smiling when the camera is trained on you all day and there is ample vanity pressure to look good. With hindsight, I should’ve dyed my hair for this special day but then again perfection wasnt a guarantee and my scalp would’ve freaked out stressing me out even more too. I also dont have perfect teeth — yet, Ill get braces when we move. Ah well, c’est la putain de vie eh, Im my own worse critic, here’s for you to judge.

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22nd!
novembre 11, 2008, 04:37
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Patrick and I celebrated my 22nd at Morton’s at the Westin hotel in Annapolis yesterday. I have to say that out of all the restaurants I’ve been to in the world, Morton’s is the best. Not only was the food excellent but their service was impeccable. Pat made reservations last week and informed them that this was my first birthday together and that he had just gotten back from the middle east and voila they made it extra special. Personalized menu with “happy birthday mrs moore ” much to my amusement, my creme brulée on the house, as were our drinks ( red wine for me and irish cream pour homme ) and a special photograph delightfully framed and taken by the good people at Morton’s. The price was definitely hefty; for that amount of money you can feed about 10 people at Olive Garden. But as Patrick said, this is a birthday/anniversary kind of thing. And if anything it was worth every penny. I’d have to admit though that its a steakho0use through and through because their oysters were puny. My filet mignon was good but Pat’s porterhouse was perfect. Their desserts though, were marvelous and undisputedly so. I had the keylime cream pie as take out because I also ordered the creme brulee both of which were amazing. I swore Patrick orgasmed in pleasure eating his chocolate cake. Im not a fan of chocolate so I have nothing much to say except it was not a run of the mill type of chocolate cake. It had a delicious, warm center that was almost liquid chocolate except thicker and the outside was fluffy, light and cake-like. Above all, the singular dish I loved best were the bacon wrapped grilled scallops; so succulent and BIG too. Heavens, my tastebuds are spoilt! Here are some delightful shots of our gastronomical adventure and my newly colored hair.

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la belle et le bad boy
novembre 11, 2008, 00:54
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Whenever I am pensive, melancholic or agitated I put on La Belle Et Le Bad Boy by Mc Solaar and feel that much more relieved. The song basically talks about the romance between a bad boy and a pretty girl, and their diverging interests in the midst of their blossoming love.Whenever it plays in the soundtrack of my mind I replay that one poignant scene of Carrie running away from an art gallery in wintry Paris as the eiffel tower glitters coldly in the distance, apathetic and uncaring. Curiously the cynicism of that particular scene in Sex and the City season 6, dispelling the stereotype of Paris as the city of romance makes it touchingly eloquent.The two episodes filmed in Paris are my favorite not because Paris is my favorite city, which it certainly isn’t. But because the producers portrayed Paris exactly how it was for me. Coldly beautiful, a smoker’s paradise and my personal hell , the eternal rain , a city where animal droppings are ubiquitous Paris was tragically disappointing. Perhaps I too have been deceived by hollywood faux amor and socialized into thinking that Paris was going to be a terribly romantic place. I also wondered if maybe my expectations were somewhat naive, Paris is afterall a big city with its dirt and grime. Then I got to thinking that if I was there with Patrick during a gorgeous summer day,perhaps my memory of it would be different and the aching loneliness of a single traveller would not mar the beauty that is Paris. I mostly heap the blame on the weather because I detest rain. But then again, it wouldn’t be the same even if I went there again myself. You never step into the river twice for other waters are ever flowing.

Who knows, perhaps someday when my heart is not afraid of disappointment again may we venture back.



change? think again
novembre 9, 2008, 03:44
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An allegory of change, the world believes Obama will make sweeping changes to both the local economy and the political image of America overseas. The illusion of faith has led them to believe with religious fervor that a new president that defies everything they stood for will defy all odds and deliver their prayers. The single two most important issues Americans choose to candidates upon are 1. the war of Iraq 2. the economy. Without arrogance or condescension, let me just say that the average American does not understand the absurdity of their voting mindset. Majority of the populace blame the staggering economic fall out on the Bush administration. Democrats will add deceitfully that Bush is the bastion of the GOP and to a large extent that is true but consider this — politicking is in the hands of a selected few who deliberately or otherwise, push their own agenda, beliefs and doctrines infiltrating national policy. It was unfortunate that Bush and co had such a resolute belief in warconomy. But I cannot emphasize enough that it was only the belief of those leaders, and that it does not represent the general opinion of republicans at large.

But I digress. Going back to my original point, Americans ( and the world at large ) expect that Obama is the panacea to all our maladies. Like naive children, they expect that in the wink of an eye President Obama can garner our boys back and with a snap of his fingers economic growth will hit 70%. Tragically they fail however, to understand that Obama cannot and therefore will not stop the unjust war in Iraq immediately. This is unfortunately because the military is a bureaucracy and thanks to the red tape that strangles much effort, the manner of getting things done is as flimsy as paperchase. The sad truth is also that Iraq is a pandora box that was opened reluctantly and must be close. Lets reminisce. Just when Bush took over, there was september 11th which fucked up wall street and everyone else. America declares war on Afghanistan, pissing off the Arab world ( racist they accused ) and of course OPEC starts to jack up the oil prices. Everyone gets screwed over again and the rest is history. Iraq came as a result of this oil manipulation and before you know it everyone’s hatin on Bush. Firstly I don’t really see how any of this really is directly caused by Bush. September 11th was to be blamed on arab terrorists and to a lesser extent, to Clinton and past presidents for the inaction they took when overseas Americans were attacked upon. None of the presidents in office during the assorted attacks on the USS Cole in Yemen,the US embassy in Beirut and Nairobi. Amazingly, nothing was done and out of the chaos and American docility, september 11th was born. How then, can you blame Bush for reacting like he did? He reacted proportionately to what happened in New York City and also for what happened in the past. This is how foreign polcy works. Fear is integral to keeping national security. Terror and its assorted forms must be employed to gain a leverage.

Next, the economy. I will be the first to admit that warconomy has dealt a massive blow to America and its financial patrons. But to blame it all on Bush is only ignorant and unfair. Economists speak of the 7 years cycle, akin to the biblical story of Joseph’s predictions of 7 good years and 7 bad. Things are different these days. Economic power is slowly tilting towards the east and the EU is slowly sinking into recession while wall street is flailing. The sad fact of the matter is that, recession comes and go. Nothing is forever and wealth like everything else in life, is fleeting. Bush isn’t to blame for recession, investors get jittery when America, the bastion of security gets attacked like that. Oil goes up because OPEC plays the race card and accuses the greater West as being racist on the Iraq war. At the onset of more petrodollar, Riyadh donates $300 million dollars to fundamentalist madrassahs in South East Asia. Consumers are not buying. People don’t feel like driving the malls when gas is so expensive and the public transportation rates, when available climb higher. Nobody feels like eating out because food prices are going up triggered by oil inflation. Consumption falls and the economy gets worse.Its a vicious cycle and it all leads back to september 11th which was the sole responsibility of terrorists. So my point is, try as I may I don’t see how Bush is absolutely to be blamed for this mayhem. He was just in the wrong place, at the wrong time, doing the right things for a nation in a wrong mindset.

I am anticipating what changes Obama will bring about. How he will magically exorcize the stupor out of a sluggish economy too afraid to spend. But if there is one thing I wish people would understand, it is that the system never changes. Its always the same people who are in power, the same people who have it all established for them, the same people who have familial links to influence. Wealthy politicians who are so remote from the layman with their heads so far in the clouds that they will never truly understand. I guess thats why people voted for Obama, because they think his upbringing was different from other presidents. Because he represents the common people. Because his family ties are far from sang bleu. But look closer and the similarities are jarring and the differences, minimal. Rahm Emmanuel reminds me a lot of Richard Perl and not just because they are both very prominent figures in the Jewish lobby and strong Israel partisans. In the end, inspite of all he stands for Obama remains a product of the system. Let me put it in perspective : how many Americans are Harvard grads? Barack’s father was Kenyan and his upbringing in both Hawaii and Jakarta was as far as it can get away from the archetypal American; how many even have passports much less lived overseas? Don’t front, the answer is “a record high of 21%” according to a survey done by Yale. Don’t believe me, check it out yourself.

http://yaleglobal.yale.edu/display.article?id=6553

At the risk of sounding too socialist, power is in the laps of the wealthy. The tobacco company still has a lot of clout, as do the oil lobby, the jewish lobby, OPEC and the firearms lobby. The Iraq war will still continue without a definite end in sight, the Arab bloc will continue to hate on America or try to ally themselves with the one president who has had muslim roots obscure as they are, Russia will feel slighted in all this presidential campaign attention and threaten to invade a random soviet satellite state somewhere and oil prices will increase during winter/summer and plummet during fall.The economy will improve because 2008 marks the end of the 7 years cycle starting from 2001for obvious reasons. I’m not a soothsayer but my point is politics is quite predictable and streamlined according to the most rational choice a national entity can make.

Don’t wait for a Godot that may never come.

Postscript: I’m sure youl have lots to say about this especially if you’re an Obama voter/supporter but please I implore you to be eloquent if not coherent in your rebuttal. Infantile and deranged responses as well as personal insults will be read and published for all to witness the travesty of immature, defamatory writing. Also, anyone who suspects I am ant-semetic, racist or hate Islam is plainly ridiculous and very well mistaken.



cravings
novembre 5, 2008, 16:53
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I crave for his attention even though he gives me plenty. God, I love him and one life time does not suffice. Patrick, you are everything.



decision 08
novembre 5, 2008, 02:40
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I dont want Obama to be president but the odds are stacked so high against me.



nostalgia
novembre 4, 2008, 01:04
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